PROLOGUE

 “Life is a spell so exquisite that everything conspires to break it.”

– Emily Dickinson

REALIZE

a Paradox

When I wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror, I’m always surprised to see myself. Is this me?? The very first fear I experienced was about not knowing who I am? There was no road map I could use to find my identity. Wikipedia calls this ipseity disturbance or self disorder; which is a psychological phenomenon of the disruption of a minimal (or basic) self. “The minimal self is “a flame that enlightens it’s surroundings and therefore itself.”

My game plan to make art was to start at the most basic point of my subject and go through my questioning process. What does it mean? Is this true?  Do I believe it?  I sought out information by using my own body’s outline, my shadow, my metaphors and the naming of who I was. My art became a fun house mirror that reflected back hidden truths, distortions and guilty confessions. Not surprisingly, the theme of my work is about my narrative identity. I began moving to the subject of death. In the last installation, on this website “Double Flame” is about death and using the same questioning matrix. This catalogue is organized chronologically and has allowed me to analyze each work; with notes and media descriptions.